Wow 1 year already since Mom's passing. There are days where it seems forever that Mom has been gone or it seems like yesterday I was sitting next to her enjoying her smile and sense of humor! I miss my Mom every day and my one wish is to have her with us again. I am sad that I can't talk with her whenever I want, go down to her house to visit her, go shopping or sneak the casino and not let Dad know where we went!!! The biggest reason I am sad without my mother is for my kids. They love and miss their Grandma Judy. It's amazing how Breckin still remembers her clear as day. He was so excited to start preschool and one of the first things he was going to do was make grandma a rainbow or an angel.
One of the last photo's of Mom at Mom and Dad's 40th Anniversary.
The last summer with Mom. We have great Memories together at Niabi Zoo!
Rainbows EVERYWHERE!!I love this prism and it is one of the BEST gifts I could receive. This prism shines beautiful rainbows throughout my car. Breckin and Maraya are always saying "Grandma Judy!" Every time they see a rainbow (on TV or in a book) they scream out Grandma Judy with a big smile on their face. I am so glad they both remember Mom!
This rock has helped me through my tough days of missing Mom. Every time I am down I look at the rock and breathe. I am so thankful of my great friends for giving me such special gifts to remember Mom by!back to life without a mother.....
This last year was hard and people keep telling me it will get easier. I keep asking myself...What will get easier? Each day without my mother is another day without seeing her face, hearing her voice, feeling the love she shared or sharing my life with her. Each birthday, holiday or special occasion that passed by were hard. Mom was the life of every gathering. We didn't have her goofy self to help get through the quiet dull moments! Losing my mother was the hardest thing that has happened to me... everything happens for a reason. God gave us a guardian angel that will love and protect us forever!
Some things I miss......
I miss my phone calls to her. We either talked for 30 seconds or hours at a time! She always gave me the advice I needed.
I miss her voice... her voice always brightened my day!
I miss her smile... when she smiled everyone smiled.
I miss her love... she had so much love for everyone!
I miss our casino adventures. She was the luckiest woman at the casino!! She would always walk out a winner!! Seeing the joy on her face was priceless when she won her winnings were priceless.
I miss our shopping sprees. Mom LOVED christmas shopping. We always had a great time finding gifts for the boys. Anything Iowa Hawkeyes was the perfect gift for them.
I miss our walks.... I remember I was pregnant with Breckin and Mom was always a fast walker. One of our walks we walked by my uncle Jan and Aunt Deb's house and then onto the paved road to Massolin. I know I was a quarter a mile behind her. She was proud that she walked faster than me! I kept yelling at her to slow down and I hoped no one saw how far ahead she was than I... I felt like a waddling baby duck following the Mama Duck!! We had plenty of laughs about this walk!
I miss her playing with my kids... She was a wonderful grandma to her grandchildren. She was so proud when she became a grandmother! My kids were the luckiest kids to have her as their grandma!
I just miss having a mother!
I treasure every memory I had with Mom. They are memories that never can be taken away.
Thanks to everyone who helped me get through this year. I wouldn't have made it without my family and friends! Mom we miss you and love you dearly and LOVE the signs you have given us throughout this year to let us know you are still here right beside us. Your love still shines through everyday!
"A Circle of our Family is Forever"
